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        I have been around this email support group for quite a while. I like 
       all of us here is stubborn and proud. 
        
       I will fight this as long as I can! 
        
       One day at work I tripped going down the aisle (like that never happens), 
       and about 15 people prairie dogged over the walls to see if I was o.k. I 
       was, but realized at that time they all knew that I had a problem 
       walking. Hell, they watched me stumble around for a long time as it 
       progressed. I had the Frankenstein stiff walk, I left the curved 
       footsteps in the snow as I walked across the parking lot. They all knew, 
       no one cared, but they did worry about me getting hurt. 
        
       That day at lunch, I went out and bought my first cane. I heard so many 
       "It's about time" comments when I got back. 
        
       The next step (no pun intended) was the disabled parking placard. Again, 
       I will fight this as long as I can! 
        
       I stumbled across so many parking lots, wearing myself out. Then one day 
       I went to a Pink Floyd (Yes I love hard rock) concert down in Denver. I 
       left 
       early, and still ended up parking about a mile away. Well out came the 
       cane, and I trudged my way to Mile-Hi stadium. Got a lot of "way to go" 
       comments 
       from folks along the way, but really I was cussing myself out for not 
       having the placard yet. I got a ride back to my car. I also went and got 
       the placard 
       the next day. 
        
       Next choice was the W/C.... I knew this would be a while in coming, but 
       there was a possibility of getting laid off, and I found out that 
       insurance covered 
       a W/C. So I got that. Didn't get laid off, and so far... still here, but 
       that could change any day. The chair rode around in the back of my 
       Explorer for so long. I would use it occasionally for thing like 
       Disneyland and such, but for the most part, it stayed pretty much new in 
       my truck for a couple of years. 
        
       Then they shut down the cafeteria that was just 100' from my cubicle, and 
       I would have to trudge (again) about a quarter mile to the cafeteria in 
       the next building. It took me about 18 minutes to walk down there. Always 
       on the wrong side of the hall - I cane with my rt. hand, so if I went off 
       balance (again, that never happens), I would just bounce off the wall. 
       Wiped out when I got there, and then have to do the same thing to get 
       back. So I started using the W/C a lot, basically if I had to walk along 
       way, I chose to roll. I still cane short treks, but the chair is my pal. 
        
       So here I sit, in the W/C. I still ski (snow/water) sitting down, hunt, 
       fish, camp, go up into the Mtns., dance (in the chair), party, etc... I 
       just do it all sitting down most of the time. 
        
       The folks around here at work just shake their heads when they see me out 
       and about. There are nine separate buildings on campus, and the only time 
       I drive is when it's raining or snowing. I go out on the walking trail, 
       across campus (1 mi. one way), just for the fun of it. 
        
       I know how it gets you down, I can recall many times when I just sat down 
       and asked God - WHY!  Then after a while, put my smile back on and 
       continued 
       on. 
        
       I hope this sharing helps someone accept the cane/walker/W/C as they 
       progress through this disease. Remember, it won't kill us, it just makes 
       us walk funny/slower. And in the immortal words of the teach (Dean), who 
       says its us that are walking funny? 
        
       Remember, everyone knows, nobody cares! 
        
       Have a great day! 
                  
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